Healing is a process, especially when you felt betrayed, deceived and worse abused. Along the way, my quest of finding myself, spiritually, while seeking the path of the Holy Ghost; I’ve encountered many challenges. It became a soup of emotions: greed, anger, vulnerability, denial, worthlessness, etc. I’ve realized that the only way out is by seeking (our Lord’s) truth, forgiving and love (fear in our Lord)… when I came across this turn in my life, I felt, “It’s too late for me…” Not realizing that it’s never too late to begin with our Lord.
My Love can be wonderful. Sharing it with others is what I want. It is something I am grateful for and I want to reveal to those who feel scared and lost. However, can this force inside me be stable? Will she be welcoming, will she be shelter, will she be heard, will she be understood, and should she be yours?
Hidden away for such a long time, I myself have misunderstood her. Hidden and kept in a box, locked away with a key that took a long time to find. Ironically, hidden in a box, she kept warmth, she kept beating, and she called out to me. I question, am I worth it to you?
Nonsense… I am worthy. I am vulnerable. I am happy. I am hungry. I am growing. I am strong. I am true. I am selfish and I am a woman… but I am not perfect.